wad is happening to my life man... think i totally ruined it... overcame one thing, another one come... im sick... im tired... im down and im still being scolded... confidence level dropped to zero again juz now... cried in the car on the way home and cried and cried... im juz sick of everything right now... im freaking tired... but this problem juz keep bugging me... how would people know how i felt... maybe some do... sigh... im not putting myself down here... but... i juz wanna leave everything to Him... i even wanted to run away from church juz now... praise Him for lifting me up on my feet... sigh... the old feeling back.... like my heart being poured acid... tmr's sermon is said to be great... i look forward and pray tt i will feel better tmr...

7/23/2005 10:32:00 PM; MUSIClover, KNOWitY